So basicly I keep seeing things, maybe they're hallucinations and its all in my head, I don't know. Today I may have travelled into another dimension again. It happened yesterday as well. I get this feeling like im dizzy and everything ripples and vibrates, and then I notice that everything looks slightly different. The rooms are slightly bigger or smaller or different shapes and everything seems to be almost 2D. Not completely 2D but not completely 3D anymore either. The most noticeable things are the trees. I don't know why but they draw my attention.
Today when it happened I was walking with my mother. I had this feeling something was following us. I could hear footsteps behind me. Not human footsteps but a kind of animal rustling. It was 5 minutes later when I realised that the person next to me was no longer my mother but someone that just looked and sounded like her. I panicked and screamed. I had no idea where they were taking me. I told them I needed to sit down and they let me so I looked for somewhere to escape too. It was whilst I was looking for an escape the world began to become more 3D and then the person beside me was my mother again.
I've been told that I might be bipolar but haven't been properly diagnosed yet. I get really bad periods of moods where sometimes I feel on top of the world and nothing can hurt me so I pile on the work because I can deal with it all. The the mood switches and I realise that I'm not meant to be alive. Sometimes I think not everyone is meant to live to be an adult. Right now I'm in a really down mood. I see myself dying all the time and often see visions of friends and family dying. Sometimes I feel so numb because nothing matters if your not going to be alive for much longer.
Sorry to be so depressing but had to vent somewhere :)
Laters xoxo
