I'm in a bit of a lazy mood at the moment. Lazy / depressed / mixed /manic. Not actually sure what's going on with me at the moment. I'm not getting any work done and I just feel like everything is going to fail. My mum told me I can't get a job because I have no qualifications and even if I do I'll get fired because the bipolar will stop me working like it does with school stuff. Why bother?
On a different note I'm so happy that a certain someone is alive! I'm struggling with feeling suicidal at the moment but realised that if I'm glad you're alive I should probably be glad I'm alive.. or something.. I'll work it out some day when my heads clearer.
Hey! Glad to hear back from you, was worried you'd be all pissed at me for disappearing but I guess you probably understand! The job thing is crap...i'm the same, find it hard to keep a job down and have tried to complete uni 3 times and failed each and every one. Gaaaaay. Did you listen to the song? That message was meant for you! Sarah Blasko - We Won't Run..I dunno if its your kinda music but when I was down it made me feel a bit better. I like the fact its quite a mellow tune but with uplifting lyrics. :).
ReplyDeleteP.S: Yes!! they keep comin in and waking me up every half hour it was SO annoying. Then one of the nurses suggested I leave the light on in my room so they didnt have to come in. I wanted to jam a pen in her eye..