Ok so mentally I'm feeling better today but guess what? My glands are swollen hugely and I physically feel like shit. Whoopee. Went to the doctor who told me that its either glandular fever or an allergic reaction to lamotrigene.
Its physically impossible to be normal and do normal things like my friends when I'm contstantly incapacitated like this. I'm meant to be having a pool party at mine this weekend which I'll probably have to cancel which is going to piss off people that have already paid for train tickets etc.
Everyday is a constant struggle in one way or another and I realise that life isn't easy and you can't just float through but how can you live if the pain is more than the gain?
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