So I've been manic about a week and two days ago I decided I wanted to get my belly button repierced. I then also decided to get my ears done as well so I popped down to the local tattoo place, parted with £100 and ended up with a belly button piercing, an inner cartilage piercing on my right ear and two outer cartilage piercings on my left which are gonna be a scaffold piercing.
I'm still in a place where I want this disease. I want this unpredictability. I don't know how to explain it because I can't even explain it to myself. I think I am mostly in control even when I'm high but I just have less inhibitions. I think its a good thing. Like a blessing. Maybe I'll see it from a different point of view when I'm in a different state of mind I don't know.
I totally know what you mean - manias (if that's what you're in) can be great, it's the dreaded bipolar depression that inevitably follows that's so horrible :( I've read where bipolar depressions are much worse that a "regular depression". The person even LOOKS different to a psychiatrist/psychologist. If life were just one big GOOD mania that didn't get out of control, wouldn't that be great! Wishing good thoughts for you! : )
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